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Entry tags:
00. Dear Ocean
Type: Text
Sender ID: Anon
To: Everyone
Subject: Dear Ocean
Warnings: People are going to be talking about their problems, so please put appropriate CW/TWs
Hello everyone! I'm going to be starting up a "Dear Ocean" post. This is where you can reach out to your fellow Riftfairers if you're in need of advice or help, and you can do it Anonymously. Other people can respond to your anon posts to try and help you figure out a tricky situation, or offer up advice on all sorts of things.
If this one goes well, I may do another in the future.
I'll even start us off.
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Dear Ocean,
Last month I saw someone that had hurt me, but he didn't stick around. We sort of got to talk a little, but I still feel like we left a lot unresolved. I don't know if I should still be angry and hurt by what he did, or if I should try to accept that he just doesn't understand me, but he was the first person who tried in a very long time.
Signed, Not-A-Monster
Sender ID: Anon
To: Everyone
Subject: Dear Ocean
Warnings: People are going to be talking about their problems, so please put appropriate CW/TWs
Hello everyone! I'm going to be starting up a "Dear Ocean" post. This is where you can reach out to your fellow Riftfairers if you're in need of advice or help, and you can do it Anonymously. Other people can respond to your anon posts to try and help you figure out a tricky situation, or offer up advice on all sorts of things.
If this one goes well, I may do another in the future.
I'll even start us off.
____________
Dear Ocean,
Last month I saw someone that had hurt me, but he didn't stick around. We sort of got to talk a little, but I still feel like we left a lot unresolved. I don't know if I should still be angry and hurt by what he did, or if I should try to accept that he just doesn't understand me, but he was the first person who tried in a very long time.
Signed, Not-A-Monster
text; anon
I think that sometimes understanding is the most important thing we can ask for. Others might disagree. But I know what it's like to feel like you're the only one, and like no one sees you. And when someone else does (or at least tries), it often doesn't matter how they treat you, because you long so much for what might be, if they would just learn to be kind.
[ this is definitely about No One In Particular, he promises ]
But at the same time, you can be angry for what happened. Humans are complex creatures, capable of all kinds of emotions all at once. Even ones that don't make sense. I think you should try and let yourself feel both of those things. And if he comes back again, maybe you'll have the chance to resolve the rest. Hang in there in the meantime.
Sincerely hoping for the best,
The Ocean
no subject
I get where you're coming from, and I know that he really tried. And he seemed to have felt bad after seeing me here again. The way he used to view me is the way everyone in the kingdom is taught since they're very little. Even their breakfast food ads are geared towards teaching children that individuals like me are to be feared and killed.
Being here really opened my eyes to the way it should be, the way people just accept all that I am and can do. And I feel bad that I'm not even looking for a way to try to go back to that place. I'd say I'm too small to feel multiple emotions at once, but I can be any size I want, so that'd be a lie.
Not-A-Monster
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It sounds like, even though there were parts of it that were hurtful, over all seeing him again had benefits. It's good that he tried.
Is there any reason for you to ever go back? Or does it feel like you should because that's where you came from?
-The Ocean
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That's a tough set of questions. I've tried to belong in that world, but every time I tried, it ended in disaster. People are afraid of me, of what I can do. And I'm afraid of being hurt again. Things need to change, and I don't think it will if I'm not there.
On the other hand, I've never felt more accepted in two thousand years than I do here. A person could get used to that, and having to go back to all that is painful.
Not-A-Monster
text; anonymous
Dear Ocean,
I'm very torn on what I should be doing. Is it forgetting my mother's sacrifice and what she might have become to allow myself to be friendly with one of the very beings who took her away? Would she forgive me for making something like "friends" with them? Would any of them forgive me?
I miss my brother a great deal right now. Even if he is a dick.
Signed, A Lost Daughter
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I think this is a world of new possibilities. That if you want to try to understand this person, that's up to you to decide, not people that aren't here.
I don't think you'd ever forget your mother's sacrifice, or the pain you feel from that. Because time doesn't heal all, it just gives you new and happy memories to surround it.
The Ocean
no subject
Thank you. I do appreciate the reply. I look forward to those new and happy memories ... and to a time when I can see this as a world of new possibilities too.
It's a bit difficult to forget the duties I have at home however. I will strive as best I can for forgive myself if I can't return to them right away.
Lost Daughter
anon (text)
All right so here's the problem; 'bout twenty years ago or so most of my people, and our entire planet got blown into space-dust. Maybe five of us made it out because we were off-world at the time, and most of that group hasn't lasted. We got told afterwards it was a comet smashed into the place and that's what did it, but...I ain't too sure that's true.
We work for a guy, and ever since he took over the organization we were part of from his dad, he's treated us specifically with no damn respect at all. And, I keep hearing these rumours that it wasn't no comet that blew up our planet, but him. Our boss, I mean. That he just up and decided to get rid of us, even after we'd served him loyally!
I don't care that the rest of my people died or nothin', but what I do care about is that the guy that did it might have tricked us survivors into keep working for him afterwards, and he still treats us like crap! I tried to bring it up to my boss, because he's one of the survivors too, but he told me to forget about it. Both him and our leader are stronger than I am, so it ain't like there's much I can do about it, but it still really grinds my gears here. How am I supposed to let a blow to my pride like that stand?
The Might
y Naoh yeah, and uh, "dear ocean" but like at the start.
Who needs anon? Not him!
You are not strong enough to defeat your superiors and take either of their positions from them. It is understandable that you must hold your tongue in the face of such a reality. To do otherwise would risk your life needlessly.
But you must hold the hatred it inspires within you. Let it strengthen and inspire you. And if there comes an opportunity to destroy the one that destroyed your home, betrayed your trust, and degraded you, you do not hesitate to do so. Until then, you survive and you remember.
text; anonymous
This is a ridiculous waste of time, but I suppose I have nothing but time to waste now.
What exactly do people do when their lives aren't in danger? How do you live with the fact that your home could be dying, while you languish away in the sand or enjoy a meal that you know others would kill for? Perhaps you'll tell me that the weight of an entire world shouldn't be on my shoulders, but you'd be wrong. I'm the only person who could ever do anything for my world, but instead I'm here.
I'm frustrated. It leads me to perhaps be somewhat crueler than those around me expect. Or deserve. I know I'm merely struggling to adapt to this "new" way of life, and I should make the best of it, but it's difficult not to feel as though this is all an incredible waste.
Signed, Wasting What Time?
[ He is never coming off of anon. ]
no subject
Okay, I'm not going to tell you not to worry about your world, or that you shouldn't carry the weight of it. I don't know your situation and how you can change it there, but I do know that this is an opportunity for you. This is a time of rest before you go back to that particular fight. You can't help your world if you burn yourself out before the climax happens.
And I will say this, as the original poster, the person I met arrived two months after I did - and he was from basically the same point in time as me. So you are probably going to go right back to the moment you left, with your world no worse off than it was before you got here. Maybe it won't ease all of your worries and concerns about what you'll have to face, but hopefully that at least helps you not to carry the idea that time is moving on without you there.
Not-A-Monster
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[ Oh he was so tempted to only answer with that, but it's anonymous so he doesn't have to hide all his feelings. ]
I have a thought exercise for you. What if I was dead before I arrived here? Or dying, at least. What if the world I'm returning to is dying as well? I'm afraid my situation may be hopeless.
no subject
[ Is Nimona happy in her world? Not entirely. She's hunted and feared, has no friends, and has been betrayed. But she couldn't leave it to die without trying to save it. ]
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[ Home is home. Even if it sucks. You have to try and save it. ]
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[ Her situation is different from his, the people of her world hates her no matter how hard she's tried to change that. So she has no problem enjoying it, even if she can still find it hard to trust people. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. ]
text; anon
I'm so sorry for what you've been through. It seems crushing, and I can only imagine. All of what the above anon says is valid, but I wanted to add something else.
If it's too difficult to face the grief, it's okay if you choose not to. You can find ways to distract yourself. Or if there's nothing else possible, maybe you can find something to help you forget.
Sincerely,
Bird
no subject
Distracting myself may be all that I have. I don't want to forget -- forgetting would be too easy, and I've never been one for doing things the easy way.
But I'll waste the time I have here, since it's all that I have. Whether that means finding a new purpose or simply taking up a hobby remains to be seen.
Do you happen to have any suggestions on either of those?
Curiously,
Wasting What Time
no subject
You would choose to remember, even though it's painful?
Suggesting a new purpose is a tall order, I think. I don't think anyone would have an easy answer to that, but how about starting with something near to your original one? If it can be applied here.
As for hobbies, that's also a little difficult. Reading above, you seem to have been very busy in your homeworld doing all you can for it. It might not have left you with time to explore other things and learn more about yourself. Did you ever think something like "oh, If I didn't have to struggle or fight, I would try my hand at baking?" Or learn how to dance, or act, or sing, or play a sport or an instrument?
With hope for you,
Bird
no subject
Of course I would. I would, and have, suffered every pain for my home. I have bled and struggled and lived for nothing else. All I want is for the dawn to break where my world is not dying, or for the day to come that I might see the sun and hear birds and life among the streets of London. If I forgot all the pain, I'd leave my home to rot. I won't do as others have already done. I will find a way to save it.
When I get back, anyway. If I survive.
Unfortunately my old job, if it can be called that, was making deliveries. A service made obsolete by these shellphones. If my world were different, perhaps... I'm not sure. I enjoy nature. And reading books I suppose. I'll keep your suggestions in mind.
Thanks,
Wasting
no subject
Dear Wasting,
Sorry. I don't mean to bring up painful things. I can see how strongly you feel about it, and it sounds as if it's worth giving your all to. So in this case, I'm going to change my answer:
Your old "purpose" still applies in this one. Your purpose is still doing all you can for your world, but in this case, you have to do all you can to return to it. I don't think you shouldn't explore more hobbies when there is time, but your world is also too important to remain idle. Some things just take priority.
Maybe doing "all you can to return to it" also means exploring and investigating this world further, talking to locals, and making new friends and allies. There can be good moments, as well. We can fight together, too, to return to all of our worlds. I know I'm trying to. It might be a slow endeavor, but for our respective worlds, it's worth doing everything and anything we can to return as soon as possible.
You're not alone in this,
Bird
text; anonymous
That strange feeling.]
Dear Ocean,
This world offers a freedom that I would never have had in my own, but I'm afraid that I'm still entrapping myself all over again. By my own choice rather than the intent of another, because I don't know what else to do other than carry on. Be something that I'm not, despite that it is what I'm meant to be in some way.
What I was created for, to do, and to be nothing more than that. My place is something I've already overstepped, nearly too late.
Signed, Assistant